I really don't know

Redd Holt, the great drummer and dear friend & colleague in our band Monteiro, Young & Holt once said to me..."If you don't know, and don't know that you don't know, then you really don't know."

Its nice to be in a place in my life where I am comfortable whether I know about something or not know. I prefer to know, but I am ok with not knowing.

For example, I believe that God exists, but I don't KNOW for sure (sensory perceptions don't prove to me that God exists, but my life experience so far and my intuition says that there is the existence of a Higher Power some people call God)...and I am ok with not knowing because I am going to be the way I am and behave the way I behave whether there actually is a God or not. That's a really nice place to be, because I can therefore live my life with little fear.

People in Singapore sometimes say in Singlish "Don't know, say Don't know lah!". I have a problem with people who don't know but refuse to admit that they don't know and try to give you some jive answer.

Here's a little video of Redd Holt, O'Donel Levy, the late Eldee Young and late John Stubblefield whom I played with on the main stage of the Montreux Jazz Festival in 1988.